I like the idea of a word to guide you instead of resolutions. Setting resolutions always felt like setting myself up for failure so I stopped creating them years ago.
Yeah, like for me it was always something to eventually judge myself for. I’d set the goal, not do it, and then use that failure to judge myself. This works better for me!
"The long answer probably involves some childhood trauma resulting in an insatiable thirst for low-level tension and drama because anything resembling peace is threatening to my sense of reality."
I can relate to this SO MUCH. Today, I am staying at home sick and it feels super uncomfortable and really nice to get small things out of the way, to be creative and to treat myself with respect.
Yes! Sick days can be so stressful. I feel this urge that I NEED to be productive, when in reality, rest and ease are really what I need. It’s a hard mental block!
It's interesting, because that is usually the case for me on healthy days.
But on a sick day, my body forces me to relax. Which ironically means that I have actually gotten a lot done and relaxed at the same time. So that feels really nice! :D
The lesson of course is trying to just try and take it easy. But that is (as you mention) a hard metal block!
This lesson of this played in my head today as I considered cleaning my room🥲 I resonate with that idea of courage.
Perhaps you will enjoy this one my uncle wrote way back: https://youtu.be/1XMznGnC7J0?si=6itxpUbkr38JnJEy
Yo that’s your uncle?! Man thanks for sharing that. You have no idea how on time that is for me. “I love the unknown” just became a new mantra for me.
He is a cool dude and creates some wonderful music. I as well, love the unknown!
If I’m not mistaken, I see he did a Tiny Desk? That’s incredible. He’s insanely talented
Yep! He did a 2nd one (covid edish) with Scott from the Avett Bros. Next time he comes around for tour i’ll let ya know
I like the idea of a word to guide you instead of resolutions. Setting resolutions always felt like setting myself up for failure so I stopped creating them years ago.
Yeah, like for me it was always something to eventually judge myself for. I’d set the goal, not do it, and then use that failure to judge myself. This works better for me!
"The long answer probably involves some childhood trauma resulting in an insatiable thirst for low-level tension and drama because anything resembling peace is threatening to my sense of reality."
I can relate to this SO MUCH. Today, I am staying at home sick and it feels super uncomfortable and really nice to get small things out of the way, to be creative and to treat myself with respect.
Yes! Sick days can be so stressful. I feel this urge that I NEED to be productive, when in reality, rest and ease are really what I need. It’s a hard mental block!
It's interesting, because that is usually the case for me on healthy days.
But on a sick day, my body forces me to relax. Which ironically means that I have actually gotten a lot done and relaxed at the same time. So that feels really nice! :D
The lesson of course is trying to just try and take it easy. But that is (as you mention) a hard metal block!